I got this from a friend's website and it applies to me so i thought i would post...

Another year has passed and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything, yet nothing being the same. In one week we will reluctantly give our hugs, and fighting tears, say goodbye to people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left.

We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to the places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before.

We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even though it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don’t seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now no one at home will completely understand.

Who will call you first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people barging in without calling or knocking? Who will get pizza at three in the morning with you? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself again?

Then you start to realize just how much things have changed, and you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you know you live in, trying desperately to hold onto everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind.

In the matter of one day’s traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messaging, 9 AM classes, and the perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we lived in it for 19 years.

But it is different now.

We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest in our hearts.

We’ve left our high school world to deal with the real world. We’ve had our hearts broken, we’ve fallen in love, we’ve helped our best friends overcome depression, stress and death, and we’ve stayed up all night just to be there for a friend in need.

There have been times when we’ve felt so helpless being so far away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

In a few weeks from now we will leave.

We will take down our pictures and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now we will arrive.

We will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us to laughter and tears over the year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in some way, we will find our place between these two completely different worlds.


In a few weeks...


I'M FINALLY GOING HOME!!!!